Aimless Ideas: Concurrent States

I don't know what to do with myself lately, as excited as I am for Cape Crusaders finally getting somewhere after months of nothing, I'm surprised to find we have some support from people we don't even know. This makes me grateful, who knows where this could take the band, and if anything this just gives me more experience in music endeavors, so win win.

Regardless, I try too hard to get myself involved with people, or at least I think I do. But lately that's changed a bit, I've gotten more confident in speaking outside of my normal perimeters, started to try to do things differently, and speak with people I don't normally speak to, so that's nice. Stagnation is the enemy correct? Correct.

I went to the movies last weekend, that was the kind of different experience I am talking about, it's strange, with my normal set of circumstances and people to go see a movie with, I can't help but feel drained out of any enthusiasm. Doing it with an obtuse set of people really made me have room to breathe, to not have to act in a set fashion, and expectations. It was pleasant.

I also had an epiphany that whatever fake hate I had in me, that was real. Great, time to start all over again. I'm lucky to have distractions though, for once it doesn't seem so bad to just not speak, to not want to say anything to anyone because they aren't worth the time put into it.

Back to music stuff, I'm venturing on the Arcade Fire's catalog after not listening to them for a while, and it makes me ponder on how Win Butler can write such heartfelt lyrics, but not be self indulgent. "If you still want me, please forgive me, the crown of love, is fallen from me." Makes me almost jealous, but this only fuels the vigor of improving my own songwriting.

Here's a little excerpt I made for lyrics for a new song I wrote for the band.

where I am is about
being written again
old roads dug up
myself stepping on them

Losing my touch
I want it back
It could be anyone
I wish it were me
You were talking about
it could be anybody
I should be me

Yeah then chorus or something, I still have to work it out. Slowly yet surely.

Edit: Oh yeah listen to that song "Just Like Always" I made myself on the How Scandinavian Myspace Page. I think it's pretty good.