Honorable Mentions #3: Flowers, Sunday, I'm gonna be REALLY DEPRESSED, Like forever.

#3 "Flowers, Sunday, I'm gonna be REALLY DEPRESSED, Like forever."

By Bryan Santizo

When one feels captivated, so much to the point where it causes them to act upon it, you know it might not work. Remembering times when one tries to find complete resolution, so that everything through which one has felt is redeemed, so that they may feel happiness in spite of the fact they already have it, looking back towards them this is how one evaluates the soul.

In my expedition towards this, I was in luck to have my companion with me, we drove along the friendliest of neighborhoods in order for me to hone my skills to achieve my redemption. Once we finally were about to set forth into the area of unknown enchantments, a surrounding so filled with visions of another world, one would expect to fall straight into the very element that is escapism.

We had made arrangements to make sure I was equipped with only the finest 'armor' so to guarantee my success. But all was for not. Like so many others, the quiet few who choose to never speak of bitter rejection, I was meant for disaster. It also was of no remedy to feel empty because I had already felt as such, being the one who had such a heavy heart and stood on its weight until it was confirmed to me by my lady of affection that my heavy heart, it wasn't of enough weight to move her towards me, not even close.

To make matters worse it only took a few hours later to learn that it could have all been prevented. But being empty, I couldn't bother to feel fury, no the effort was too great and superfluous thoughts on life began to form. Thank god for my comrades though, much like a brick thrown at a window, these thoughts were shattered, forever scattered to be reminded of later on as a lesson. We drove, drove on in the middle of nowhere with the most indifferent group I had ever had the pleasure to be with. I had come over my shortcomings and emerged reborn. Sorrows can be drowned, you just need to find the closest river.

And today I look back in thoughts not of sadness or anger but in the sense that, that day I had found reconciliation and a great peace that I was not alone in a life of both failures and successes.