Aimless Ideas: Thoughts on Gigs

Well, as a matter of time, we managed to finish up those two gigs that we had lying around and were anticipating to complete.

I'll admit, the 4th of July gig was probably one of THE most un-fun performances I've ever had to sit through. Aside from the shitty intro, and horrendous vocal styling of screaming at Psycho Killer, I could do without.

I think it all went wrong from the moment I realized I loathed half the crowd, no offense to any of them, very courteous of them to allow us to play, nevertheless I felt like the audience was more dead than I was, and the overload of compliments at the end of made it seem more like pity dick-riding than anything else. Thank god it was a short six song setlist.

The anniversary gig was a completely different story though, at first I had doubts due to the previous day's total apathy. But I was more than glad to discover that it would be much more enjoyable than any gig since the Kyle gig. (even if it was a tad ridiculous that Jake had to start swearing as a result of crowd loss)

I was pumped, the crowd seemed much more generous, and there was more variety in the setlist. Although I forgot to say a few things before a handful of songs, (Ceremony was supposed to be dedicated to someone not there) It was fun, fast paced, and very intimate playing in a living room instead of a garage.

For once, I can say I finished a gig while feeling completely good, as other gigs usually had me pissed off more than glad I just finished it. (Of course I hate certain people regardless of how I display myself publicly, you know who you are.)

Either way, It's events during it and it's aftermath were filled with nothing but good feelings, and I really enjoyed the support we got from Katy for photographing, Kyle for filming, and Sonja and her family for generally letting us play. If I would want to have a last gig ever, that would have been the one.

In the end, I think the band might actually live longer than I ever anticipated, and hopefully that means some new material that will be more band focused than my solo ventures (STILL WORKING ON THAT EP!) but I can only predict it, for all I know it can all go wrong, because it has before. I hope not.

"It barks at me like no one else"